Thanks for writing and showing your concern brother!! My husband and I have been communicating thru these circumstances alot better than before I want to see him come to the Lord ..not just say he did but seeing him walk because of Christ!!I want to see Christ walking in him That is the ultimate picture ..I know he is fighting the calling of the Lord and and it doesnt help none when i get weak at the same time ..as he is ..lol But i believe !!!
That Jesus is going to bring it to pass I know i cant give up anymore ..Its time i become the woman that God has called me to be ..God will be my crutch for now on//..I havent been very trusting in the Lord. And im sorry for that, u know? I know its gonna take faith to move this mountian and I know the Lord wants to show his strength in this only so he will get the glory ..Praise God he has put us in a position to where no body looks up to us anymore!!! Because now it shows me and everyone else that the Lord is our strength and that Michelle and Jared couldnt do it on our own ..u know..lol its great how the Lord will humble you in ur life ..only to show forth his grace and forgiveness and power...so that he will be glorified and not man..I hope im making some sense im typing as I believe he is speaking to me ..I know that we all have our own weaknesses..And it show s in others a lot more than some but praise be to our God that he sees the heart and knows how to heal us
when no one else can..Thank you mike and your wife ..Im so grateful to see the power of of our healing God in ur lives ..its gonna be hard as we walk thru this desert but we do know this that there is the promise land that he has prepared for us when we make to the other side ..Keep up brother and sister..be encouraged and know that YOur Lord loves you !!!And that he always provides for us thru our deepest and darkest moments wow..Its kinda like manna from heaven..lol..He has begun healing in your home...Blessed you are ...
In Christs love ,
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on Tue 11 Mar 2008 11:20:53 am Says:
I'm glad to hear that the lines of communication have been opened. I cannot stress enough the importance of communication. My not talking almost destroyed my marriage, but Sharon stuck with me for 17 years. Not many people would have. Even now there are only a couple of people who I can open up to. But that's something I need to work on.
Keep praying that your husband comes to know the love of Christ. Be an example for him. We all get weak. If we didn't have weakness there would be no need for faith. If we didn't need faith than Christ died for nothing. You are human and God expects it. I was (and still am at times) the worst kind of sinner. I believe in God with all my heart, but I still sin. I still get angry, but through the grace of God it doesn't last as long, and I know I will be forgiven if I ask for forgiveness. You will stumble and you will fall. You are kidding yourself if you think you won't. When you fall pick yourself back up. If you don't think you can, let me know. I will pick you up. Give me your doubts, anger, concerns and I will place them at the feet of Christ. I do not have a problem asking Christ for help.
I don't want to have to track you down to see how you are doing. Use you MyFlock; post a blog or leave a comment. If you don't feel comfortable posting on line use my email. If you just want to vent your anger, put it in writing and send it to me. I won't be hurt. I'll just lay it at Christ's feet.
Take care and stay in touch. Your Brother in Christ, Mike
on Wed 12 Mar 2008 11:24:52 am Says:
Michelle, I found this on-line and I know that there is some of it I could relate to...I thought it might help you remember how strong God is and how much your prayers help both you and your husband. I continually pray for peace for both of you.
Peace of Christ...Sharon
How I started Praying for my Husband
I began to pray every day for Michael, like I had never prayed before. Each time, though, I had to confess my own hardness of heart. I saw how deeply hurt and unforgiving of him I was. I donít want to pray for him. I donít want to ask God to bless him. I only want God to strike his heart with lightning and convict him of how cruel he has been, I thought. I had to say over and over, ďGod, I confess my unforgiveness toward my husband. Deliver me from all of it.Ē
Little by little, I began to see changes occur in both of us. When Michael became angry, instead of reacting negatively, I prayed for him. I asked God to give me insight into what was causing his rage. He did. I asked Him what I could do to make things better. He showed me. My husbandís anger became less frequent and more quickly soothed. Every day, prayer built something positive. Weíre still not perfected, but weíve come a long way. It hasnít been easy, yet Iím convinced that Godís way is worth the effort it takes to walk in it. Itís the only way to save a marriage.
A wifeís prayers for her husband have a far greater effect on him than anyone elseís, even his motherís. (Sorry, Mom.) A motherís prayers for her child are certainly fervent. But when a man marries, he leaves his father and mother and becomes one with his wife (Matthew 19:5). They are a team, one unit, unified in spirit. The strength of a man and wife joined together in Godís sight is far greater than the sum of the strengths of each of the two individuals. Thatís because the Holy Spirit unites them and gives added power to their prayers.
Thatís also why there is so much at stake if we donít pray. Can you imagine praying for the right side of your body and not the left? If the right side is not sustained and protected and it falls, itís going to bring down the left side with it. The same is true of you and your husband. If you pray for yourself and not him, you will never find the blessings and fulfillment you want. What happens to him happens to you and you canít get around it.
This oneness gives us a power that the enemy doesnít like. Thatís why he devises ways to weaken it. He gives us whatever we will fall for, whether it be low self-esteem, pride, the need to be right, miscommunication, or the bowing to our own selfish desires. He will tell you lies like, ďNothing will ever change.Ē ďYour failures are irreparable.Ē ďThereís no hope for reconciliation.Ē ďYouíd be happier with someone else.Ē Heíll tell you whatever you will believe, because he knows if he can get you to believe it, there is no future for your marriage. If you believe enough lies, your heart will eventually be hardened against Godís truth.
In every broken marriage, there is at least one person whose heart is hard against God. When a heart becomes hard, there is no vision from Godís perspective. When weíre miserable in a marriage, we feel that anything will be an improvement over what weíre experiencing. But we donít see the whole picture. We only see the way it is, not the way God wants it to become. When we pray, however, our hearts become soft toward God and we get a vision. We see there is hope. We have faith that He will restore all that has been devoured, destroyed, and eaten away from the marriage. ďI will restore to you the years that the swarming locust has eatenĒ (Joel 2:25). We can trust Him to take away the pain, hopelessness, hardness, and unforgiveness. We are able to envision His ability to resurrect love and life from the deadest of places.
Imagine Mary Magdaleneís joy when she went to Jesusí tomb the third day after He had been crucified and found that He was not dead after all, but had been raised up by the power of God. The joy of seeing something hopelessly dead brought to life is the greatest joy we can know. The power that resurrected Jesus is the very same power that will resurrect the dead places of your marriage and put life back into it. ďGod both raised up the Lord and will also raise us up by His powerĒ (1 Corinthians 6:14). Itís the only power that can. But it doesnít happen without a heart for God that is willing to gut it out in prayer, grow through tough times, and wait for love to be resurrected. We have to go through the pain to get to the joy.
You have to decide if you want your marriage to work, and if you want it badly enough to do whatever is necessary, within healthy parameters, to see it happen. You have to believe the part of your relationship that has been eaten away by pain, indifference, and selfishness can be restored. You have to trust that what has swarmed over you, such as abuse, death of a child, infidelity, poverty, loss, catastrophic illness, or accident, can be relieved of its death grip. You have to determine that everything consuming you and your husband, such as workaholism, alcoholism, drug abuse, or depression, can be destroyed, You have to know that whatever has crept into your relationship so silently and stealthily as to not even be perceived as a threat until it is clearly presentósuch as making idols of your career, your dreams, your kids, or your selfish desiresócan be removed. You have to trust that God is big enough to accomplish all this and more.
If you wake up one morning with a stranger in your bed and itís your husband, if you experience a silent withdrawal from one anotherís lives that severs all emotional connection, if you sense a relentless draining away of love and hope, if your relationship is in so bottomless a pit of hurt and anger that every day sends you deeper into despair, if every word spoken drives a wedge further between you until it becomes an impenetrable barrier keeping you miles apart, be assured that none of the above is Godís will for your marriage. Godís will is to break down all these barriers and lift you out of that pit. He can heal the wounds and put love back in your heart. Nothing and no one else can.
But you have to rise up and say, ďLord, I pray for an end to this conflict and a breaking of the hold strife has on us. Take away the hurt and the armor weíve put up to protect ourselves. Lift us out of the pit of unforgiveness. Speak through us so that our words reflect Your love, peace, and reconciliation. Tear down this wall between us and teach us how to walk through it. Enable us to rise up from this paralysis and move into the healing and wholeness You have for us.Ē
Donít write off the marriage. Ask God to give you a new husband. He is able to take the one you have and make him a new creation in Christ. Husbands and wives are not destined to fight, emotionally disconnect, live in marital deadness, be miserable, or divorce. We have Godís power on our side. We donít have to leave our marriages to chance. We can fight for them in prayer and not give up, because as long as we are praying, there is hope. With God, nothing is ever as dead as it seems. Not even your own feelings.
What About Me? I Need Prayer, Too.
Itís natural to enter into this prayer venture wondering if your husband will ever be praying for you in the same way youíre praying for him. While that would certainly be great, donít count on it. Praying for your husband will be an act of unselfish, unconditional love and sacrifice on your part. You must be willing to make this commitment knowing it is quite possibleóeven highly probableóthat he will never pray for you in the same way. In some cases, he may not pray for you at all. You can ask him to, and you can pray for him to pray for you, but you canít demand it of him. Regardless, whether he does or doesnít is not your concern, itís Godís, So release him from that obligation. If he doesnít pray for you, itís his loss more than yours anyway. Your happiness and fulfillment will not ride on whether he prays, it will depend on your own relationship with the Lord. Yes, wives need prayer, too. But Iím convinced we should not depend on our husbands to be the sole providers of it. In fact, looking to your husband to be your dedicated prayer partner could be a setup for failure and disappointment for both of you.
I learned that the best thing for our marriage was for me to have women prayer partners with whom I prayed every week. I now believe this is vital for any marriage. If you can find two or more strong, faith-filled women whom you thoroughly trust, and with whom you can share the longings of your heart, set up a weekly prayer time. It will change your life. This doesnít mean you have to tell your prayer partners everything about your husband or expose the private details of his life. The purpose is to ask God to make your heart right, show you how to be a good wife, share the burdens of your soul, and seek Godís blessing on your husband.