i am feeling better and seeing everyday the wonderful works God has in motion for me and my family.  I spend my days looking for the positive as much as possible and learning to be more loving.  It's really hard for me to get out and be with people now because I have spend much of the last 4 years literally in my bedroom!  Slowly, and getting into the things I used to love (like crocheting, and the choir), and spending time with my loved ones.  I can't hide in my room and pray for death when I have such an awesome life and such a wonderful community of friends and family who really love me, and who I love dearly.  i have an amazing husband who has really stepped up for me and AJ, and I totally proud of him!!  And AJ, well, he keeps me on my toes, haha!!!  I am glad to be me again, but recovery is going to take time for all involved.  Thanks for the prayers!!! Please keep praying!!

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I am so sorry I missed you!!!  I am having a rough time recovering physically, but I am still positive about every thing!!  My real concern is for my household.  We all have been contemplating whether or not we should get some counseling for us and the kids.  The accident was very traumatic for all of us.  I would love some input on this thought process.  This is uncharted territory for us since we have never had this experience  before.  I have to admit that I feel guilty about the whole deal.  I put 8 lives in danger. 

It also makes me think about the lady who hit my uncle.  I have always said that what happened to her could very easily happen to any of us.  All drivers are guilty of not paying attention like they should.  But anyway, after this accident, I have decided that it would be in everyone's best interest if I did not drive anymore.  I knew this day was coming.  I should have quit driving a while back.  I am just on too many medications to be behind the wheel.  I don't even miss it that much (so far). 

Now, I maintain that I was clear headed and focused last Friday, but I do not want to take any more chances.  There were 2 adults and 5 children in that truck.  Yes, the accident did help me make the decision, but it was the right one.  When I lost control of the truck, I felt God's hands guiding the truck, and I blacked out before the impact.  We were on a dirt road in the middle of nowhere, But God sent us help.  I know that God wanted my attention, because I was the only one stuck in the truck until the EMTs arrived.  He sent me a lady to pray with, and really cool EMTs who let me see each child so I would know they were all okay.   

So here is my guilty secret.  Ever since my health started declining, I have been asking God to take me Home.  I told everyone that I didn't want to be here anymore.  I was so used to being independent, and that is long gone now.  I used to be very social and now I hardly ever leave my room.  I have a very big box of medicine I take everyday.  I am 36, and I am mad at myself for purposely trying to destroy myself when I was younger.  I used to tell my friends that I would never make to 30.

Well, I got married at 30, and at 31, had a son, knowing that getting pregnant could cause serious health problems.  I say that AJ is worth all of the sacrifices!!!  I lose sight of that from time to time.  And now my baby boy, who will be 5 Sunday, Keeps telling people I am dying, or asking them if I am going to die.  What have I done to my son?  I tell him now that I am not going to die yet, and his hugs and kisses help to heal Mommy, haha!!

Ok, so I told you all that to say that God let us get in that accident for many different reasons for each person, but for me, the chewing out I got was this.  QUIT WAITING TO DIE!!!!!  LIVE, AND ENJOY THE GIFTS I HAVE GIVEN YOU!!!!  YOUR LIFE IS AWESOME, IF YOU WOULD JUST OPEN YOUR EYES!!! So God took me behind the proverbial woodshed, and I got the "correction" of a lifetime, haha!  I hear you Lord!!  Thank you!!

This blog is over, and I am sorry that it basically is my last blog just more in depth.  Love you all.  Please pray for my household.

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I want you all to know that God was with me in that overturned truck. He told me to stop waiting to die, and that MY life was special to HIM, and to all the wonderful people He put in my life, so I HAVE to keep fighting!! He told me He is with me always, so there is no reason to fear. i am special, and He still needs to use me for His Glory, Selah!!! I am truly blessed!!!

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